Peaceful goal achiever
The semester is over (YAY) but I won’t know my final grades until I get back from vacation!
I was offered the internship that I wanted (it is at a small local hospital)!!!
Hubbs has one online final to finish and one on campus tomorrow morning and then he is done until we get back! (He has 2 summer classes and then he will graduate!)
I’m going to miss my Beef. I wish there was some way to tell him I will be coming back so he doesn’t think I’ve left him forever…
Is it weird that I knew this or is it weird that I actually saw one of the frisbees that has some of his ashes inside because one of Hubb’s coworkers knew the guy and showed it to us? Answer: Neither, it makes me awesome :)
(via halleus)
“You feel that you are being forced to forgo either your beliefs or your goals in order to better deal with the problems at hand. You are however able to exert self control, although this is causing internal stress and a sense of anxiety that the end of these efforts may not be close. You need to believe that there will be an end to your troubles.
Insecurity is the watchword for you at this moment. There is a strong sense that you have been socially demeaned or ignored recently. Hopes and dreams have been stymied, leading to an ever greater anxiety or unease. You need reassurance and to believe that your problems will someday be overcome, whether or not this is actually the case. Often your anxieties will lead you to become unreasonable or demanding.”
You feel frustrated in your attempts to make your will manifest itself in a relationship, either public or private. This frustration can be seen by others as an irritability or anxiety and occasionally as a tendency to drift into self-righteous anger. There is a feeling that society or people around you are holding you back, which can lead to moral exhaustion and a sense of apathy if allowed to fester. Ultimately, if this continues, you will long only to be alone.
You will often assume an attitude of superiority or disdain. This masks a strong sense of inferiority and a need to be loved or respected. The desire that you have for social respect has led you to behave as if you were completely self-reliant, despite the fact that you are terrified of failure. You will take any opportunity to prove your own importance, even to the point of self-destruction. Similarly, criticism can be met with extreme contempt. Displays of respect will help to break down this artificial barrier.
This thing is creepy and accurate and I don’t like it.
Mine was wholly incorrect and now I feel a bit ill.
I’m pretty sure the whole thing is bunk, anyway, but the random crap it pulled out for me was fitting. All the flashing and weird noise made me anxious, though.
I did it without sound and it was super accurate…also I feel nauseated
(via briiseiida)
I try to stay positive, but to be honest, I can’t always be optimistic every day and today was one of those days.
I interviewed 3 canidates for my previous position today. 1 was very good, the other two were not good, one was even strange enough to tell me that she has had many conflicts with previous coworkers. Who thinks that is actually a good thing to say to a potential employer?! AND she interrupted me mid-sentence…
These are common sense things NOT to do at an interview if you want the job!
Another crappy thing at work was that my office mate was super stressed out and complained all day about every damn thing. My supervisor was also very negative and was talking about other coworkers to me in a non-professional manner.
Despite all that drama at work, I still managed to be in a fairly good mood when I got home…
until Hubbs got home.
HE IS ALSO SUPER STRESSED and DOWN!!! He has a bunch of assignments and finals to do this week (he takes courses online) and he needs to get everything done by Saturday because we leave early Sunday morning for vacation. AND he is really busy at work this week. So basically I couldn’t take anymore negativity without becoming down myself.
When I start feeling down, I get really angry and spiral into this awful feeling of worthlessness. I sometimes throw things, I’ve punched Hubbs, I’ve runaway, I’ve said I don’t want to live anymore…things I always regret when the dust settles. I know that it is not a healthy way to express my anger, and I continue to work on it.
Today I managed to only throw a bottle of sunscreen on the floor and mention to Hubbs I hoped I got hit by a car as I ran. (I try to use exercise to work through these feelings.) I ran about 2 miles and then just stopped and walked. I never do that. I just felt so angry that I couldn’t make the people around me feel any better and at the same time was so frustrated that everyone just dumped their negative energies on me.
I know that I’m the only one who can control my reaction to a situation but sometimes I just get to a breaking point.
